I guess I never meant much in the first place

But was still shit. I’m still as depressed as usual. And now my eyes are puffy and red. fml.

I like music by the way. It really helps sometimes- and my new earphones too. I can turn them up extremely loud and it is unnoticable from outside- perfect :) I can’t tell you what i listen to- becuase you will laugh; but lets just say that if its music- i will love it.

It is really hard when i hate myself too. My dad left almost an hour earlier this morning; coincidently on the dot of the time that i wake up. Both of my parents are really pissed at me at the moment- and they aren’t trying to hide it, thats for sure. Then my dad texted me to tell me more about how dissapointed in me he is and how i need to apologise to my mother. Last time i checked, my’mother’ is going out of her way to avoid me to. If i don’t get a chance afterschool tonight- ill then be caught for 40 hours without being able to even answer her. fml. Timing for the 40 hour famine has not worked out so well. Anyway. Eveen if noone is reading this at least i said it. I seriously just want to crawl into a hole and die right now.